Intense Emotions

I was recently asked why I have not blogged in so long and why I have never blogged about my grandchildren. My answer is for the same reason I have yet to blog about my mom...

I cannot string together any words to express the appropriate, intense feelings and emotions. So, until I come up with some way to express these feelings, there will be no blog about the 3G's or the loss of my Mom.

Since You've Been Gone - May 21, 2005

Angel Gail Buckner
1990 -2005

Since You've Been Gone we have missed you, loved you, cried because your are gone, been angry at the unfairness, been furious because CF didnt stand for CURE FOUND in 2005 or sooner.

We have tattooed memorials to you in our skin.

We have worked hard to raise thousands of dollars for CF research and awareness.

We will NEVER forget the beautiful, redheaded ANGEL that I believe was sent here to make us better people, to show us how to deal with adversity head on and with Grace. You NEVER complained even when you could barely take a breath. You always comforted us, wanted to make sure we were ok.

I will never forget my honorary daugher. The little girl playing with Brats dolls and watching the Rugrats. The teenager Sarah and I took to see NSYNC at War Memorial Stadium who looked up at me with those big beautiful eyes and said, 'this is the best day of my life,' when Justin, JC, Joey, Chris and Lance exploded onto the stage.

Your parents gave you the perfect name. You are and were an Angel in every sense of the word.

National Association for Stock Car Auto Racing

This picture represents Sunday afternoons and the occasional Saturday night "under the lights" in the Lucheck household during every NASCAR racing season for the past 20 years. Since August 10, 2009, I have not been able to hear or see anything remotely related to racing without feeling that all too familiar kick in the stomach. But I could NOT let the first day of the 2010 NASCAR racing season, especially the revered Daytona 500, go by without notice...without a tribute to BJ and his favorite pasttime. So today I placed BJ's phone, his usual can of Tab (minus the shot of something special he would add), and his race watching attire of pajama pants and Tshirt (and no they never matched) in the living room and turned on the race, then Sarah and I left for the afternoon to attend a baby shower. It would have been too painful to stay home and not hear him yell the occasional "you dumb son-of-a-bitch" or "what the hell are you thinking pitting now?"

So here's to you, BJ. Where ever you are, I know you're in the driver's seat.

Chick-fil-A Birthday

It is my 49th birthday (yikes!). It started out with a visit from Olivia and Layla while Jody did errands. As usual Olivia was very entertaining and Layla smiled the entire time. In the afternoon Sarah and I went to Conway to the mothers-to-be Rhea Lana sale.
Then it was on to dinner. Sarah wanted to take me to Chili's or TGI Friday's but the wait was going to be so long that we opted for fast food in order to still have a little shopping time before the stores closed. Sarah felt bad about our choice of restaurant for my birthday dinner, but I heart Chick-fil-A and didn't mind at all. Anyway, its not where you are, but who you're with!

Things Overheard Part II

I'm gittin his ass some Depends and Ensure.

I got about half a toenail and its three times as thick as it should be.

Ma'am, do yall sell buttons?

I've got lead in my pencil and no one to write to.

And they called it Puppy Love...

It's been a hard day's night, and I've been working like a dog. It's been a hard day's night, I should be sleeping like a log. But when I get home to you, I find the things that you do will make me feel alright.

GIRL POWER

Livvy sleeping on me in the recliner while Auntie Sarah and Layla are deep in conversation. I love times like these.